Say you love me when you really mean it.
did i really do something wrong anot?
am i really that irritating to u that u dont wanna talk to me?
maybe i am.
just tell me la.
but u know u're hurting me alot?
by just replying all my msgs to u.
then tell ppl u actually dont wanna talk to me.
u know how hurtful it is?
maybe u've never had this kind of feelings before.
treat someone soooooooo good.
and then this is the "hui bao" i get is it?
nice lor i can tell u.
everyone's been asking me.
even my brother.
if i was given a chance for u to stab me once in any part of my body,
and u could forgive me after u did that,
would i allow that.
and i said yes.
well,
maybe u must be thinking that i of course will say that right.
i act noble hor?
but whatever u think la.
maybe u think that lor.
u just come la.
come and stab me.
i've been this wishful thinking that u will be back with me again.
but then why u made me to have such false hopes?
dont want talk to me is it?
then just dont talk.
dont reply me can?
make me so happy,
thought u dont hate me that much ler,
then drop down the hopes again.
u know it's very very very painful?
maybe i've mistaken u or whatever,
but i just think that u should tell me how u feel.
dont so bu hao yi si can anot.
just tell la.
i wont get sad or angry or whatever.
maybe i'll get sad,
but not for long.
i mean it's better then being so happy,
then so sad again.
i rather sad for a while only.
please pardon me for all those, guys.
i've been so stressful.
how stressful u wanna know?
everything.
and it's everything.
everything also in the wrong.
it's not like before.
my friendship, love, studies, home, etc.
everything's in the wrong.
and in my mind now,
is just to have a sleep tonight.
and then just not to wake up anymore.
die peacefully.
nope.
maybe not peacefully.
i cant tell my mummy or daddy.
i just cant.
cause.
erm.
so far as i know for my daddy's character,
he will just get my brother to whack that person up.
and i wouldn't be able to stop it.
so i just cant tell.
i cant pour my feelings to anyone.
i only can sit on my chair, type on my comp crying.
i'm not trying to act kelian in case any of my readers would think.
u want like that think i also bo bian la.
just dont try and annoy me or whatever.
i cannot control my moods.
i might just stand up, slap you, spit on you, vomit on you, whack you and so on.
no la.
jk.
i'm not that bad. D:
i'm not trying to scare anyone out of their life or anything.
just that i dont want to suddenly scold u guys for dk-what-reasons.
so i say this first. =.=
and haowei,
if you're here to read my blog (amazingly),
dont bully yuki can anot.
maybe she bully you first,
but you're a boy,
let the girls first can?
cause i dont want to shout at you in class or anything.
maybe i'll just open one eye and shut one eye.
pretend nothing had happened to convince myself.
i wonder if i can do that anot.
but i'll try.
i've been really very tired.
please spare me, will you?
stop making false hopes for me.
i dont wish for that.
if you're here reading my blog,
i'm glad.
maybe you guys are thinking that i'm mad,
and why should i let her see.
but i just wanna say my hearts out.
dont wanna keep it all to myself anymore.
of course i dont wish that you'll get angrier and annoyed by me.
i just..
wanna..
some peace.
i dont want any false hopes.
sorry and thanks.
I'm really very very tired.
